Happy day before labor day everyone!

I hope everyone enjoys their vacation day tomorrow if you've started school or work. To those of you like me who haven't started yet, HOORAY for another bummy day!

Alrighhhhhhhty then, just a recap about what I did today and some pictures!

Woke up at like.. 8:40 AM or so to the sound of my sister fumbling around with paper on my desk. She wanted to scan and copy some things from her book but I smelled something fishy because it's Sunday, that copying can wait, and WHAT DO YOU WANTTT? 

She wanted to go to dim sum. At 11 or 11:30. Ok, so why get me up? To make sure I'm going to go and be on time. OY!!!! GAN NI!! (hasn't been noticed yet but throughout my blogs, I use chinese when i have no other way to express my feelings)

So off to dim sum we went. DANNNNNNG there were so many people waiting to get in that restaurant.. they were packed inside and flooding outside. Didn't wait too long though, as I firmly believe my mother is part of some kind of underground asian mafia. Me and my cousins have all tossed this idea around and we all are very convinced of it now. 

Mother dropped me off at home for a little bit so she could do her hair but later came back and picked me up while Jess and Ross went to Ikea. Where did we go? Off to a baker of mooncakes! Normally we buy traditional Cantonese style mooncakes (typical square ones you all see) but there's been a growing popularity among these two bakers who work from home and create Taiwanese style mooncakes (harder to find). It's run by a couple, and the wife just happened to be the cousin of Jessica, who is married to my cousin Jackie! I had a slice of it and ooomg, they were wonderful. 

This was the best picture I could find of the taiwanese style. It's a flakey white bun, usually stamed with a red trademark on the top and filled with various things from sweets to meat.

We are now prepared for the mid-autumn festival (not a real festival, it's a holiday)! Mark your calenders everyone and prepare to consume many mooncakes! But uhh.. I hope you all keep it smart because it's a well known fact that canto-style mooncakes are about 1,000 Calories each while Taiwanese can go up to about 700 Calories each. Don't get chubby now!

So after that we went to dinner at my uncle's sushi place (Yoshi's Sushi located in Yorba Linda if you're curious) and while Jess and Ross went to rent movies, me and my mom went to deliver a box of mooncakes to my old babysitter (grew up with her). DUDE! Everything about their house has changed!! The color.. the patio.. the lawn.. the stairs.. the inside.. the backyard.. everything! It made me a little nostalgic being inside but at the same time, so many things had changed. :) My old babysitter didn't even recognize me and couldn't believe how much I've changed. That woman taught me how to play blackjack, turtle, and other stuff!! I LOVE HER!! 

We then went off to drop a box of mooncakes at my great grand uncle's house and finally went home. =D I saved a box for Christian's family.. hopefully they'll like it? 

Ok, so like I had said in my previous post, I dyed my hair. Here we go!

With flash

Natural daylight

SOOOOO much better than my old hair nasty dull faded brown that was flat and over 8 months old. LOL. Jessica bets my hair will turn orange in two days because I did it myself. HMPH!

Now, the ring Christian got me! 

It's a cheapy ring and you guys might not like it but I love it so take that! :D YEA!

Oh and now the nails I painted.. don't laugh. I added rhinestones because I felt like it.

with flash

without flash

Now the sad thing is, I only did one hand because I can't paint well with my left.. so I have one hand painted and the other bare. :) YAy!

Ok that's all for today. Toodles!

-Katie

I DYED MY HAIR!! NO, SERIOUSLY, I DID!!!!

Might not come as a shocker to some, but I am one lazy hoebag. When it comes to coloring my hair, I've always gone to the same salon, had the same stylist, paid the same amount, but never for the same color. Usually.. a slight trim of my super dead and dry hair (now revived after growing it out and hacking off the dead).. will cost roughly 60 bucks at my salon. Color.. let's not go there.. we'll just say my total usually ends at $120-$160 ish range, depending on how I decide to color cut or bleach. Yea I know, for the thrifty spending readers out there, this is a major WHAT THE FUCK kinda thing. I never really thought about dying my own hair until recently. 

Today me and Christian (on tolerable terms right now) were going around running errands (aka.. buying more stuff for my apartment). While Ulta wasn't on the list.. my feet magically ended up inside.. and I see myself staring at the hair coloring section! It was so strange.. almost like sleep walking! :)

Needless to say, Christian wasn't too surprised (ha.. ha) yet he wasn't too bummed either because he wanted to change his hair color as well in time for his passport picture. He chose the same brand as me (fucking copycat, he just giggles like a teletubby) but he chose a color a few shades lighter than mine. We quickly finish the rest of my errands and hurry back to my house to get play with our new toys. 

I went first. I mixed my color together and let me tell you my first reaction. THIS SHIT STINKS!!!! Yes I've smelled dye before, yes I knew it didn't smell good, BUT.. I've never had it that close to my face before and that really clears up your sinuses almost as good as wasabi! I finished up after a while (thick hair I tell you), and mixed Christian's color together for him because.. apparently he can't on his own. I dyed his hair all around but he ended up using the extra dye to make his hair spike up.. weirdo. We didn't make TOO much of a mess but the bathroom STANNNNNNNK (door was open, fan was on) and even just walking around the house made the place smell like dye (my house is itty bitty). 

Results?

Christian's hair is obviously more flashy but mine's richer and COOLER YOU LITTLE PRICK!! :( When we were purchasing the dye, he kept saying that his color was better. 

I still need to get my hair cut, it's a nice moppy mop right now. 

We headed over to Life plaza because I was craving a crepe. Now, I told Christian to order whatever he wanted but he only wanted a Lemon Juice with Jelly. So.. I ordered a Tiramisu Crepe, and I specifically told him that I won't share because I am a greedy muncher. 

SOOOOOOOO guess who ended up eatting half of the crepe? *hmph*

We went over to the Plaza Walk and I saw Diana working at Vanille! :( She seemed busy though so I didn't want to bother her. We looked around and I saw this really cute ring that had 2 hearts facing in the same direction and I don't know.. it's kinda cheesy looking but I really liked it. It was the only one there and when I tried it on, and it fit (well.. middle finger) but still! It wasn't too expensive but it wasn't something I HAD to have, so I decided not to get it. Surprise surprise, Christian ACTUALLY got it and paid for it. HELL froze over I tell you. It seriously must have. This boy rarely buys me anything unless it's my bday or xmas (apparently anniversaries aren't in his book). I don't harass him about buying me things but this move surprised me. I think he felt bad about our fights lately.. maybe..

We went to his favorite store, iKicks, and he scoped it out but didn't see anything too awesome or new. I thought that was weird because he usually sees SOMETHING. I saw the back of this neglected shoe in the corner and pulled it off the shelf while Christian was browsing. It was pretty unique and I actually really liked it for some odd reason. I grabbed Christian and showed him my little baby (I was literally cradling it) and he flipped. Apparently, he loves it too. LOL. He tried them on, says they're ok, but one look at his face and you can tell he totally wanted to just walk out with them on his feet. *sigh* How can you say no? I paid when he was looking at other shoes near the window and gave him the bag outside. :) He looked like a kid who just got candy. 

You know.. this actually makes me want to cry. We used to always be like this.. you know, spending time together, running errands together, guessing what the other likes and surprising them, starting projects or trying something new together, walking in random directions holding hands or each other, just talking about stupid things that don't really matter in life, just.. communicating. There are so many times when I've gotten so mad that I try wishing myself to forget him and trying to convince myself that I don't really love him. It never works because you can't hide what's real.. 

What's real? What do I know? What's that nagging thought at the back of my mind whenever I get so fed up that I want to end it with him?

.. well.. i SUPPOSE.. that maybe I'm more in love with him than I want to be. 

Or is that another way of hiding the truth that I might possibly hate him?

I'll never know. I always let my emotions get the best of me and like my ex-boss said.. "you wear your heart on your sleeve. I'll tell you right now that's part of your charm, but it makes you vulnerable to the world."

I think I'd like to agree with that. All right, pictures of my hair next time and I'll show my attempt to do the nails from the previous post.

-Katie

Badonk donk!

AhhHHHHHHHHH!! 

Ok it's nothing. BUT. 

Yesterday I was trying to paint my nails the way it's pictured below.

Yea super fucking awesome huh? Too bad they turned out like crap on my own nails. You win some you lose some. I'll try again in another hour or so. 

Am I still mad at Christian? You can bet your life on it! 

Anywhos, I would just like to say that I like eat pilaf.. but the word itself.. makes me inwardly giggle, but I'm not sure why. Pilaf. Pilaf? piiiiiiiiilaf?

Ok I'm off before yall think I'm a weird ass bitch, although that's not too far from the truth. 

-Katie

to wish on a star.. is a waste of time.

I wish I may..

I wish I might..

To have the strength to admit defeat. (Relationship rant as a warning)

It's been no secret around here that me and Christian have been having problems.. and as much as I'd like to think he's sincerely willing to change.. it's just gotten so much worse. Those girls who see their bfs constantly.. or even live with them.. can probably agree with me on the fact that they're bf has more or less become their best friend. Your relationship may be intimate but he is the person you feel the most comfortable around.. someone who you can be yourself to. 

That being said, not seeing him or hanging out with him for a day, or even up to a week, can seem pretty nerve wrecking because you don't know what he's doing. As much as you think you TRUST him.. you really don't, and men being the MEN that they are, don't catch on to that, so basically, they're not helping the situation much when they go out and do stupid things.

Christian.. doesn't understand any of this. He says he understands, he says he knows, but when I actually questioned what exactly it was he thought he knew, he couldn't give me an answer. Not one single answer.

I'm not your wild college girl. I don't go out partying that much and I don't want to go out shopping everyday despite how much money I do end up spending. I'm pretty bland and boring compared to most people despite the "image" I APPARENTLY (according to others) give off. 

If you're the type who LOVES to go out in groups to restaurants for dinner outtings everyday, I'm the type who prefers to kick it at home and eat take-out from my fridge or make myself some sushi, noodles, or sandwich. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm not a complete loser! When I'm out with my friends, that's one thing. But if I had the choice of being lazy and relaxing, I'd take that up in a heartbeat. I love ATV riding, snowboarding, the works. But there are just so many things I like to savor and relish, such as my time off from school and work. I've only got a month of summer (not left, start to finish) and I'm going to soak up as much lazy time as I possibly can before I go to the massive campus of UCLA. Do you know how many times I got lost? But I digress..

What does this have to do with my relationship problems? Almost everything. Christian complains about how I don't like to go out or having him come over. It irritates me when he comes over because within an hour he'll get mad and start whining about how boring it is and such and such. I say it's ok for him to hang out with his friends every so often but he does it EVERY SINGLE DAY (except sunday dunno why), and he gets home at 1-2 AM.. usually no calls or anything until he's almost home (by then I'm pissed). The last time just put the candle on my big fat chocolate cake. He doesn't call me all day, and when I call his house nobody picks up. He has no cell phone even though I bought him the Shadow from T-mobile last year, so it's almost impossible to reach him. Little did I know that he had taken his dad's cell phone that day but STILL didn't let me know or anything. He calls when he's back home (2 AM), and says he was just out with the friends playing video games. Yeah ok, you say that everyday. His stupid trips are usually from 12-1/2 AM.. so that's a whole 12 hours of gaming? You're shittin me right? Even if it was from 4 PM - 2 Am.. that's 10 hours of sitting still. You can't even sit still at my house for an hour and you expect me to believe you can sit for 10? EVERYDAY of the FUCKING WEEK? 

Oh and to make things so much better, the next day he came by to apologize for being the ass that he is (I won't explain why), we decided to go to CVS in his car (I was looking for a certain nail polish). The minute I opened his door, all I could smell was ALCOHOL and something like.. rotting pizza.. or something. He had a half full bottle of jack daniels in trunk that was sealed tight apparently. I asked him where it came from. He said his friend left it in his car. So he wasn't gaming? He said his friends came over because they got kicked out early from a party and left it in his car. Well, if he was gaming, and his friends came over to the house, why are they anywhere near his car, let alone with his trunk up so that they can put it in and conveniently forget it there? 

Seriously, this crap isn't even the new to me. I've been lied to so many times by him that it's SERIOUSLY not that hard to know he's lying his ass off. People might think that I'm overreacting and being stupid, but I told you the other lies he's pulled off in the past, you wouldn't even give him the time of day. 

There's so many things I want to say.. but I can't.. because in the end, anybody could read this and blab about my stories. THEN, I always get in trouble because it's like.. "oh why did you tell them that?" blah blah blah.. shit though, seriously? If you're ok with what you say and the things you do, why can't I publish it? People act so ashamed of the shit they do when it's about to be put down in writing but they'll do it again when nobody is paying attention. 

That little pansy says he's scared to lose me but he keeps making the same mistakes over and over again. Breaking the same promises every week. I even threatened to end it all and he got all defensive saying I'm overreacting to everything instead of apologizing. One thing about him, he never apologizes unless I ask for it.

I don't know. I feel like I'm wasting my time. He has my website address but I know he hates reading anything beyond the title of a magazine, so I know he won't read this. BUT IF YOU DO CHRISTIAN, I'M SO MAD AT YOU!

What irks me the most? When he breaks a promise and later instead of saying sorry, he says "Oh you're mad over something like that?" ...... dude. Come on. You broke a promise, MULTIPLE TIMES. I kinda sorta have these things called FEELINGS and this tiny little thing called FAITH in you.. but no really, just ignore them, they aren't TOO important right?

I'm so tired of arguing and fighting.. but whenever I break it off, I can't help but take him back again. I'll officially be moving to my apartment in LA in mid September.. maybe that'll help. New environment, and even if we fought, it's not like we can just run over to see each other in the blink of an eye to make up. Sounds messed up but that's what I'm hoping for. 

I'm just so tired of crying and waiting. People say relationships are built on trust.. but I have no shred of trust in him at all because I know what he's capable of. So what kind of relationship do I have? 

Laugh at how pathetic this post may sound but this feeling, it's not uncommon to everyone. We all experience it multiple times in our lives. The only difference is, how we each deal with it and how we interpret the ways it was overcome.. if it was at all.

wo hao nan guo..

-Katie

so bored

:) yessss, another frivolous post about nothing. 

I haven't plucked my eyebrows or touched them in a week and a half but WOAHH!! I always personally thought the growth rate of my hair (everywhere except my head) grew pretty fast but this is like.. yeti-super-hairy fast. Pure nastyness right here. 

On the flipside, I wanted to put up a picture that the boyfriend took of me when we were in our hotel room at Vegas. I really like it! I always do that makeup whenever I go out and away from my usually lazy just-liner ways or just-foundation days. Maybe I should pick a new going-out look.. HMMMMM!!! That's something to consider. Especially when I have bins and drawers full of neglected and un-used makeup. So sad. 

I don't think I'll wear that dress anymore.. :( it has hidden pockets/a pouch ish kinda thing in the front and it liked to poof out sometimes in pictures. Not flattering. Ah well! 

I would like you to notice how the bf doesn't seem to care that I'm making funny faces. 

Those two are pics from vegas. 

Ok back to my boredom!

OMG so I forgot to mention in my last post was that before cleaning for 4 hours, I was baking (once again, due to boredom).. and my little darling who requested the peanut butter and oatmeal cookies forgot to take them home! So my little sister started nibbling on them.. ahaha. The mini nilla wafer cookies I made (very tiny cookies with chocolate chip in the middle of each) were mostly eaten by her too even though I told her she couldn't eat them. GRRR!!!

Ok, bye~

Katie

survey!

But before the survey, I just have to say I spent 4 hours cleaning the house today, with my little sister not being much of a help. I swear she pulls dirty dishes and bowls out from her ass because they come out by the dozens!

Anywhooos, not much to blog about, so I wanted to do a survey! My old xanga used to be full of these little hoes!!!

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What's the first thing you'll do when you turn 18?
buy cigarettes for somebody else -.0

Where's the last place you went?
outside

Do you find piercings attractive?
yes I do

When was the last time you saw snow?
last year.. or last last year. My ass doesn't miss it

Who are your favorite people to talk to when you're down?
nobody. I like to hide in the corner of my room and try to persuade my mother that I'm emo. I figure THEN she'll feed me. ;D

Who was the last person you sat next to?
Christian Ballzangg

Do you smile often?
I suppose

Do you prefer an ocean or pool?
swimming, pool.

tanning, beach.

When was the last time you cried?
.. sometime last week. :( blame it on christian.

Why is your relationship status the way it is?
because I make it that way

How long is your hair?
umm.. past my shoulders, above my boobs

What color are your eyes?

light brown (strange)

Who do you dislike currently?
off the top of my head, the idiot who makes those tobacco commercials 

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
courage. I envy those who can say what they really want to say. What I want to say always gets lost in translation

Do you miss anything/anyone?
not really

Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
No, and I never understood why people do that.

If you were being chased by an alligator, what would you do?
.... drive away.

How many pillows are on your bed?
two

What song are you currently listening to?
no current addiction. 

What time did you wake up this morning?
9 ish

Do you have any cousins?
Uhh.. my family has spawned and taken over the world. I have quit a few and I don't just mean like 5, 10, or 20. Yes, WOAH, yes I know.

Can you imagine yourself living in a cardboard box?
NOPE.

Who was the last person you talked to?

little sister

What is the WORST subject they teach at school?
philosophy. GREAT SUBJECT. terrible professors. They're all wackos

Where do you plan on living when you grow up?

still in Cali I believe

Ever liked someone that you didn't think you stood a chance with?
hahaha doesn't everyone. 

Is someone on your mind right now?
not really

Would you ever change for a boy/girl?
I've done it already, no way in hell am I doing it again. 

How do you feel about abortions?
I'm pro choice. 

Do you eat junk food everyday?
I know I shouldn't.. but yes. :(

Have you seen anyone lately that you don't get along with but you said hi anyways?
No, I generally don't speak to people I don't like

Who has your heart at the moment?
well.. I supppppppppppose I should say Christian. Hmph. Depends what day it is.

Are your parents over the age of 40?
yep

What is your favorite color shirt to wear?
dark grey or a dark purple

Would you change yourself?
to be better yes.

Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
AHAHAHAHA oh yes, all the time

What shoes did you wear today?
none yet

Do you like hugs?
well no, I actually don't like being touched too much but if somebody comes and gives me one I don't mind too much as long as it's not a choke hold.

Are you a loud person?
I'm a bloody bull horn

Would you rather trade lives with a famous person?
sure why not

Are you ready to get out of this town?
city, most def.

When was the last time you went shopping?
last last week.

Where did you go shopping at?
some outlet in vegas

Where is your heart?
near my boobs

Are you wearing any jewelry?
just the hello kitty necklace my dad got me for my 20th bday

Did you brush your teeth this morning?
OF course

Do you live near your best friends?
we're close but also far (school)

Are you scared of bugs?
depends which ones.

What do you think of Eminem?
I think he's pretty good.

Do you read?
not as often as I used to

Do you sleep with a teddy bear?
nope

What's the last TV show you watched?
The Salon

What are you doing right now?
this survey

Is there anyone that you wish was out of your life?
that changes from day to day

Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
christian

Do you have any tattoos or piercings?
5 piercings and a future tattoo once I work up the courage to get my ass in that chair.

Did you hug or kiss anyone today?
christian

Do you like candy necklaces?
not really, I find them sour

When's the last time you fell or ran into something?
HMMMM.. forgot.

Are you a fast typer?
people say I am

Have you ever moved?
nope

What makes you mad?
people with nasty manners and hygiene.

Is there a guy that knows everything or almost everything about you?
lol christian

Have you ever made out in a church?
nope

Do you tell your mom everything?
nope. Don't get me wrong, I love her. She's just really.... naggy.

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
yessir

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
yes

Have you ever had the cops called on you?
I don't think so

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
Letting my ex get what he wanted back then. Seriously, I'm still mad about it to this very day. I look better than all your nasty ass girls now eh?

What is something you're currently frustrated about?
people

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
nope

What does your last text message say?
"do you still have your bio book"

How did you and your number 1 become friends?
this was taken from myspace. lol. Umm.. we're a couple.

Does the person you like, like you back?
yes

How old is the person on your top?
24

Do you have plans for tomorrow?
nothin but kickin back and being lazy

Name something that made you frown today?
christian's nasty habits

What were you doing an hour ago?
watching tv

What was the last thing you said aloud?
"it's the top red one"

How many different things did you drink today?
nothing

Are you ticklish?
extremely

Is there someone you will never forget?
yep

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
christian i think

What were you doing at midnight last night?
talking

Do you wish on 11:11?
no.

Can you keep a secret?
depends for who and what the secret is. I'm known to be pretty blabby if I don't think it's right to keep it a secret.

So what's on your mind?
nada

Which shoe do you put on first?
right

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a C?
:D YEA!

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forget

Are you random?
Oh yea, some people ask if i'm have a.d.d.

If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
yep

Are you paranoid about something?
yup yup

Wanting to tell someone something?
well yea but what's the past is in the past. Too late for anything.

Would you change yourself to make someone like you?
I would have in teh past but not now.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
i think so

Can you spell your first name using only bands?
Kai

Ataris

Three six mafia

Immortal Technique 

Earth Wind and Fire

Have you chewed gum after someone else already has?
NO

Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
only when nobody else is around to clean. I'm pretty OCD

Last movie?
Pineapple Express

Last thing you ate?
noodles, stuff, and stuff

Did you celebrate Valentine's Day this year?
yes i did

3 things you’ve done today
sleep

eat

pee

What's your favorite animal?
penguin

Do you usually get your friends sick when you are sick?
all the damn time , YEA!

Who did you last comment?
sarah

Did you have any homework today?
nope

Ever thrown a shoe at somebody?
nope

What's something you need from the drugstore right now?
shaving cream, because I'm just a yeti like that

Do you bump into someones arm if you want to hold there hand?
No, I just grab it.

Worst part about hugs?
people with body odor and sweat.

Do you prank call people?
nope

Tell me about the shirt you're wearing?
I got it at UCLA, because, I am, going to UCLA

What would you change about your life right now?
Umm.. I don't know

Elaborate on your profile picture:
It's hot.

What do you wear to bed?
whatever big shirt I throw on

What color is your bedspread?
light blue 

If you were getting married tomorrow, do you know who'd be your maid of honor?
umm.. no.

What do you carry with you at all times?
my boogers.

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
I don't think so

When was the last time you saw your grandpa?
7.. ish years ago I think

Who was the last person you talked to in person?
my little sister

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Ok that is all for today. Nothing too exciting. Adios my non-existent readers!

Katie

PEPPER? WHAT?

Now, I'm a huge fan of reading makeup blogs and food blogs.. particularly baking blogs and anything that relates to the use of refined sugars and flour. Bored as I am.. I wanted to blog about something I stubbled upon that has to do with one of my top 5 favorite desserts!!!!

MACARONS (also spelled macaroons)!!!! 

I absolutely salivate when I see these colorful bite-sized desserts!! Oh these are pure love I tell you.. well just to me maybe. 

Now.. what's to blog about? 

Well, one of my favorite bakers blogged a recipe with a great shot of the result.. her strawberry mint and pepper macarons. 

Mint and pepper? Like.. peppermint? NO! GROUND PEPPER! WHAT? 

My delicious sweet little angels are now kickin it with some BANG? 

Oh dear.. 

But the picture looks delicious. Maybe it isn't so bad? 

That's just my take on it. I want a macaron now. OY VEY!

Katie